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Name: Aarika
Country: United States
State: California
Birthday: 1/21/1990
Gender: Female
Interests: i'm a nerd.
i read.
i write.
i sing.
i dance.
that's who i am..
Expertise: i'm a regular artist.
insane!!
Occupation: Student
Message: message me
Website: visit my website
Member Since:
9/7/2003
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| mmm. so Prom is May 3rd.
my senior prom. wow.
i'm really...um...excited? haha I guess. It's just, gah. i don't know. i've never been big on dances. I mean, i like them, but...i dunno, this one seems so much bigger than all of the rest. Maybe that's because it is. It's all expensive...and special...and...well, it's prom. what else is there to say?
I guess i'm just a little apprehensive. I don't like awkwardness. never have, and somehow prom just seems like it will cause a LOT of awkwardness. At least for me.
the whole. dress and the car and the...date. ::shivers:: just seems like there are many aspects that can go wrong.
i dunno. maybe it's just nerves.
no. it is just nerves.
and those tend to get in the way of some pretty fantastic stuff. God help me. Just let me put it all in your hands.
-aarika
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| I knew when i accepted the position of President i was going to be looked at to lead. I didn't know i was going to end up being so much more than that.
Haha, it really surprised me and still surprises me how some of the girls in my choir come to me for support, and how easy it is to be there for them.
I'm eighteen, but I feel like such a mom sometimes...and i like it. I like knowing that these girls trust me like that with their problems and their troubles and they do look to me, not to make them feel better, but to be for them.
Even if I can't help, it's important to let them know that I do care. I love each and everyone of my girls and I want them to know that I'm here for them. I think God has put me in this place to really be a light to them. A lot of them have troubles at home and come from rough childhoods, if I could help lead to an escape from that then I am going to do everything in my power to help.
i like helping people. I never thought about being more than a writer until this year and realized how much i want to help the people in this world.
Praise God for helping me find myself. =D
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| January 21st, 2008
Goodness gracious I can't believe it. I'm going to be 18. Hah. It's such a mind trip.
You know I remember when I was little trying to picture myself being 18 and I just couldn't do it. I would look in the mirror and I just couldn't imagine myself getting any older. To be honest, I thought the rapture would have happened by now. And it struck me as odd because out of all the things that I could imagine: stories of princesses and soldiers, magic and angels, adventure and romance, I could never picture myself as an adult.
I guess that's why I pushed myself with my writing, wanting to do as much of it as possible because I really thought I would never get the chance to be old and do it. Haha, it really is a mind trip that now I'm here and it's not so hard anymore to picture myself an adult, going off to college, graduate school, getting married, having kids. I can see it all happening.
And it looks so beautiful.
Obviously I know I'm still really young to be thinking of such things like marriage and children, but I look forward to it. After years of living in the past, making up my own world, I suddenly can't wait for what God has in store in the real world, in the real future.
I'm a day away from the rest of my life, and I praise God for it. =D
-aarika
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| just a few days left people and woot!
it's CHRISTmas!!
haha. I always love the CHRISTmas holidays. It always brings my spirits up. The tree, the lights, the food, the sweets. It's all good. But I think what gets me excited the most is...the family.
God has blessed me with an amazing family that I would never trade for anything in the world. A family that I can celebrate the true meaning of CHRISTmas with and appreciate it to the point where, I remember what we're really celebrating. I remember that it's not just about the tree and the lights and the food and the sweets. I remember that there was a baby that was endowed to a virgin by the Holy Spirit and born in human flesh to be the messiah. The King of the Jews. And this baby, saved my life.
That fact somehow gets lost in the chaos of Santa and his workshop. Reindeer take precedent over Angels nowadays and even presents; the prospect of getting NEW stuff is more important than remembering the most important present that was ever bestowed unto us. It really is a shame, but...that's why I love my family.
It is always importantly stressed why we gather every CHRISTmas night. Sure we open presents, but we don't sing CHRISTmas carols. there is no, "dashing through the snow" or "jingle bell rock". No. It's, "The old rugged cross," and "Great is thy faithfulness"
And prayer is always important, thanking God for the things we have and are about to receive, and another year together to celebrate his birth. Praise God for families that don't let the true meaning of CHRISTmas die in the halmark holiday of it all. Because what would we be without them?
i'll tell you:
worldly
Grow in Christ
-aarika
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| Hah, I don't know what's wrong with me, but I've had a difficult time adjusting to normality. [forgive the rhyme]
Alright, so ED week is the "hormonal" week, where a lot of my friends...well...everyone in choir kind of gets hyped up with high school adrenaline and what not. It's pretty inevitable, mostly because we're all together ALL the time. Gah, but thank GOD I somehow escaped it. haha.
Now, I'm naturally friendly the way I am. I've been labeled a "flirt" since elementary school but all of that can mostly be attributed to the fact that I just get along with boys better than I do with girls. I don't try to lead anyone on, and it's never my intention, that's just how it was taken and accepted. But I can gladly say now, that since people have become used to my personality it is hardly ever skewed in the wrong direction anymore, [maturity levels in high school have risen since freshman year thank God.]
Anyway, to move on. I am naturally friendly, so I really prayed for my head to not explode when ED came around. I really asked God to press upon my heart the need to not go overly crazy and hectic for the opposite gender and He totally came through. As everyone's hormone levels sailed through the roof, mine dwindled down to a mere non-existence. hah it was very empowering. My only problem now is though i wasn't hormonally crazy during these past seven weeks, everyone else was, and there were certain...*cough cough boys cough cough* that approached me.
And now that ED is over, everyone is supposed to go back to normal, [which i am doing] but um...some people aren't, and it's kind of confusing. Bleh. CONFUSING!!
*sigh* Intentions get skewed in the process of this whole event and I don't really know what's going on, but...i'm still being approached. Mayhaps it's too early to expect everything to go back to normal so quickly, but...it usually turns off like a light switch and it seems the light switch is stuck on "on". Gah. I don't know, I just thank God that He's never left me and even through all of this hormonal confusion I can simply say:
"Sorry boys, I'm taken by the most amazing man to ever live. He loves me so much that He died for me! Can you do that?"
Haha. oh yeah. The true love of my life. =D
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